I’m not really a big fan of the rain especially when I’m in the mood to go out or when I’m actually outside with no ride. It poured so hard in my area and I don’t want to risk battling against the flood so I had no choice but to stay in. Today though, my family and I went out to go to church and the mall that I’m so so happy I felt like my itch to go out has been finally scratched! It’s also been a while since I last posted a TSC entry so it seems fitting to update that I am currently…

Nothing beats a Sunday night in a road trip with your loved ones, ♡ 

“It’s not about the destination. It’s getting there that’s the good part." - Morgan Matson, Amy and Roger’s Epic Detour

I really don’t know how to start this post. I feel like there is a hole somewhere and I can’t find the words to fill in the gap so I keep on typing and deleting everything.

Call it a writer’s block or something, there’s a lot going on in my life that I haven’t shared in my blog because I simply do not know how to start(!) but I really, really do not want to get tired of this hobby so I hope I’ll be able to freely blog again by starting off with the things I’m CURRENTLY:

READING. I actually just finished it a while ago but it’s still Sunday so it’s counted? Heheh. The Sky is Everywhere by Jandy Nelson is seriously on my forever favorite list ugh!! It taught me a lot about grief, love and acceptance. This book, quel dork! I secretly loved how the word ‘deflower’ was used and it’s so cute although the meaning says otherwise.

LISTENING to Ed Sheeran’s Thinking Out Loud. When Ed’s new album was released last June, it became my jam for 2 consecutive months I sweaaar! When I first listened to this song I just know that this should be my song when I walk down the aisle. My cousins and I planned to go to his concert on March but tickets were already sold out on the selling day!! The consolation prize I got was the release mv of his song. D: But I’m planning to go to The Vamps’ con too but not sure yet. Awesome band concerts lined up for 2015 I’m so mad!

THINKING about the things that we could be …biglang ganon hahaha. No really, I think there are things that I should be doing but at the same time I don’t think there are any but still, gah! I guess I’m always so pressured.

WISHING that I can be a person who learns how to prioritize things. It’s a wish, because although I’m losing the fangirl feels, I don’t think I’m ready to fully leave. I kind of still want to be that person who says yolo to things I don’t feel like doing.

HOPING to get good grades this second grading! I promised myself I’ll do better but now I feel like I’ll have lower grades especially in Physics. I just want to bang my head in the wall because Physics. Ugh. This week is exams’ week too so I really have to get my head in the game (but my heart’s in the song jk). F o c u s !

WEARING a varsity short! I joined two fun runs this month and I feel so weak lol but the fun run today, which is a boy scout fun run, was so fun I can’t wait to blog about it!

WANTING to get rid of insecurities and low self-esteem. I often find myself stuck between two personalities because one minute I joke and laugh with other people but the next I just want to cover myself because of something someone said. I want to not be affected of words so easily. I want to not think that they’re the deadliest weapon in the history of ever.

NEEDING moooore paperbacks! Books are a big part of my life already. When I want to learn, I read. When I want to forget, I read. I just need to always read. It’s an oxygen. 

FEELING happy, free, confused, and lonely at the same time. Taylor Swift perfectly described it. With Luhan leaving exo (2 members lost in 1 year, I could only cry and sigh), with all the happenings in school of which I will blog about soon, with deep emotions these books I’ve been reading give me, I am ambivalent.

This post came out too long, phew.

Before the last Sunday of January ends, I am currently:

READING Falling for the Ghost of You by Nicole Christie and as usual, ebook!

WRITING the things I missed out on my planner. I aim to fill in everything for this year’s planner because I failed last year omg.

LISTENING to the sound of silence. Yes, I am a nocturnal person.   

THINKING about what will happen on the last 2 months of school. With issues sprouting up here and there, I hate to admit this but I actually can’t wait for junior year to end.  

SMELLING nothing because I’m all sniff and sneeze today. If the cold never bothered Demi Lovato anyway, it bothers me. A lot.

WISHING that I will get to marry my bias. It does hurt to wish for something ridiculous to happen.

HOPING that people will stop spreading false rumors especially the RIP *insert name here* thing because we’re talking about life here! A little bit of respect for the person involved would be nice.  

WEARING my customized silk screened-shirt that my friend made for a TLE project and B&W checkered shorts lol

LOVING a guy who doesn’t know you exist *coughBaekhyuncough*

WANTING to buy books and clothes but I can’t because I’m saving up for a concert that is yet to be confirmed.  

NEEDING sleep. My body clock is screwed!

FEELING pressured. I have a lot of things to do and procrastination is knocking at my door, please send help.

CLICKING through photos of EXO because of they’re at a ski resort today ;u; I spazz here lol